Truth is

Truth is. There's lots of things about me that I cover lately. Gone through alot and I decide to surrender. Nothing to gain from trying to protect whatever self-pride and reputation I have left. here goes. Truth is


1. I get hurt easily. I pretend I go through it like a man. But truth is I can barely hold it in. I do cry over it by myself in my room sometimes.
  
2. Friendship means alot to me. If I done anything wrong to you, I will fell guilty all the way til I correct my mistake. I always try to put my friends first. You guys are a big deal for me. I wouldn't want to lose any of you guys. But I also want such respect back. Dun treat me like nothing. Gtfo if you don't.
  
3. I make mistakes. That makes me a normal human being. But if I do them, I will do everything in my power to correct it. You have no right to criticize me cuz you are not free from your own mistakes.

4. I'm a complete, complete mess right now. Exams are here and what have I done? Nothing. Today I tried studying and I can't even start at all. I either procrastinate, sleep or go emo. My rooms a complete mess. I haven't been doing much except hide in my room emo-ing with my guitar or playing my psp. Just sad

5. This one is the killer. It's the silence. The silence from you. The shroud around the whole thing. I thought we were cool, but I'm not sure anymore. At times I do over think things, and that just sucks. No text, no conversation, no nothing from you. What hurts more is the fact it was my fault. I just... I just.... cant... :/ kill me now.

6. I pretend to be happy. All my happy post are a complete lie. Yes, I suck that bad.

7. I talk to God all the time. But I'm not finding the answer I need. :/


So, exams still on-going. I have no way of catching up unless a miracle happen. I get so emo at times, I just feel like.... haih nevermind. I need you to tell me its going to be okay. I need you to tell me we're completely cool and everything will work out. Not from anyone else. Then again, I annoyed you so many times, I'm afraid what we had is unsalvageable. All I can do now is wallow in my self-pity. Okay.