A day with The Avengers

Weeks back, when my Youth said we're gonna go watch The Avengers, you can imagine how excited I was! I haven't felt so excited to watch a movie since Transformers 3. And as all anticipated good movies, I tried to avoid googling or asking a friend about the movie. It was a tough 3 weeks lol. 


And btw, I'm not going to spoil anything about the movie. So read on :)

THE AVENGERS!! WOOOOO!!!!




Sooo today was finally the day. I was so excited! I  slept early yesterday night just to be awake and pay extra attention to the movie :3 (which I epicly failed becuz I slept late last night watching football and I forgot I had choir performance thingie early in the morning -_- haha) 


The movie... hmm tough call on this one. Out of 10, I probably give it 7-ish maybe?? Dun get me wrong, it was super epic and the effects was mindblowing! The characters characteristics was welled portrayed and the plot was decent enough to follow. but it was missing something. I dunno what but it was missing some sort of 'oommpphh' to it. Not to mention I wanted spiderman to be in the team!!! D: Apparently a strong guy with a indestructible shield is more qualified -_- 


And me be-ing a slow person, it took me a while to understand the plot and recognize the character's faces lol. 


Other than that, I alot of things spoiled the movie for me. For one, when I watch a movie, I like to get absorb into the movie, as if it was really happening and I was really there. I prefer to get emotionally involve in it. Like cry in sad scenes and get all tense up in fighting scenes. all those. But nnoooo, people around me were giggling and laughing not to mention throwing popcorns around -_- That kind of ruin the mood.... alot lol. They were even giggling in the epic fighting scene. That was a real spoiler. 


Not to mention the lady in front of me was leaning forward!! Blocked my view! EPIC FIGHTING SCENE SUMORE!!! NNNOOOO!!! Its like this, the chairs are design so that if u lean backwards, you won't block the view of the person behind you. She practically blocked half the screen with her head when she leaned forward -_- 


Okay, I sound like a criticizer here, and a negative one at that lol. Conclusion: the movie was great. Whether I'll go watch it again is a different story though. I think my favourite character would be Captain America. He is one bad-ass soldier. :3 Hulk was the most gay lol. And Scarlett was hot. Nuff said here. 
Alson Lai, signing out.  Peace.

Emotions and life's lesson

Emotions. On a good day, it makes you feel like the happiest and luckiest person alive. On a bad day, it devastates you. It brings a person down. It destroys humanity, brings a country to its knees and eventually the world.

Okay just kidding. 

But yeah, emotions plays a big role in our lives. It directly affects our situation and even our judgement.

And lately with so much things going on, I made alot of mistakes. Mistakes which will cost me a lot of things which I once held close. People won't look at me the same way anymore. Thinking back, I was too emotional. It affected me so badly. It started off with my first mistake. I took it badly which ended up with another mistake and another, each bigger then the other. It hurts now when I'm thinking about it  with a clear head. All the things I should have done to the things I shouldn't have. :/ *siighhhss*

Everyday I wake up wishing I could turn back this whole week back. This nightmare of a chapter has to be the worse mistake I made in my life. But its too late now. What is done is done. All I can do is learn my lesson from this. Emotions will always be there. They will always cloud our judgement but we have to control ourselves and make sure you won't do something you'll regret someday. Like me.

Friends. Some had my back, some betray me, some stood there and watch. Im extremely grateful to the ones who gave me advice and was there for me when I needed them the most. I tell you guys now that I couldn't have pull through this without your guidance. You guys helped me with my burdens and pain. I promise you, I'll repay to you guys someday. :) And to those who badmouthed or back stabbed me in the process, theres nothing I can say here. But now I can see who are my real friends.

Not forgetting God who was by my side all the way. During the times I felt most lonely, afraid and sad, he was there for me. I even took out my bible and randomly flipped the pages while silently praying for God to give me a verse wish would help me. And he did. 

So watch yourselves. If your brother sins, rebuke him and if he repents, forgive him. If he sins against you seven times a day, and seven times come back to you and says, 'I repent,' forgive him." Luke 17:3-4

"Casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7

Thank you Lord


Oh in case your wondering. I made it out alive.. in a sense I guess. 


To the people I hurt, I'm so sorry for what I did. I cannot express how stupid I have been and how bad I feel. I can never make it up to you guys and my apologies might never be enough, but I just hope you understand that I am sincerely sorry. To my true friends, you guys deserve an award! You got my back all the way and stood by me :') To the badmouths and back stabbers, uuhhh
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   \ ('_') /    < Who gives a shit about you?     


So heres a summary of what happen this week. :
Love sucks
Trust in God and your bros. 
Think with a clear head. Control emotions.
Learning who's my real friends.
Apologize to those I hurt.
Badmouths and back stabbers can.go.die
You cant go wrong with ice-cream
Time heals wounds. Emotional ones too
Homework doesn't finishes itself
Learning from mistakes
Move on

Mistakes and scars.

Idiot. Idiot. Why was I thinking??? :(  It was perfect. Things were going good.... and I ruined it. Idiot.

You know my previous post about a girl? Well its about her again. Things we're getting good. We talk all the time. I even got to hang out with her on a couple of occasions too. I couldn't really believe my luck. I finally got my break and things were going my way. No other guys, no false rumours, no lies, etc. I thought it was a perfect chance, and I still do. She was special too. Not like other girls I know. Cool, pretty, smart and pretty lame haha. Pretty cute too. :3 It sounds great huh? I thought so too.

So here's my mistake. This BIG mistake I did that no guy should ever do to a girl. :/ All da guys out there pay attention, you should know this. It started like this. We wanted to exchange who we liked, the real one. I told her to tell me hers first then I will honestly tell her who I like (obviously you know who). She told me she honestly like noone at that time.... At that moment.....I felt screwed...... I thought....I though..... nvm. Just too high hopes that time. 

I thought of it awhile. What should I say?I was playing game half way that time so my attention was pretty much divided. In the end, I stupidly replied 'you'.

Wtf did I just do? I confessed I liked to her through a text. I soon realize my mistake. Too all guys out there, never ever ever ever EVER confess to a girl you like her through a text message. That is just a turnoff and pretty cowardly of you to do so.

Another thing was that I confessed to soon. I only get to know here really well for about a month. A healthy relationship be that short. Again my mistake.

So yeah, she avoided answering the question after that. And I felt..... what can I say. I knew where this was heading. Front the moment I liked her, this was exactly the scenario I was trying to avoid, but here I am anyways. And yeah, next day she explained to me how she couldn't like me the same way back. Again, what can I say?

I remember sacrificing so much time just to talk to her. All those hours spend texting her. I remember going out to the movies with her. I remember laughing and talking and just having fun together. So much memories and moments in time, all down the drain. I'm so mad at myself right now, I could just blow man. I was hurt, and really sad. The pain. It wasn't just normal pain. It came from the fact that I let it all slipped from my fingers because of what I did. *poof* Just like that. And its all gone. I cannot put into words on how sad I feel right now.

I'm not giving up yet. I want her to know she means alot to me but at the same time I don't want to annoy her with all this. Maybe someday I'll get my chance.But for now...... yeah I think I'm gonna go cry now.