Saturday, September 8, 2012

My problem

You wanna whats my problem?? My problem is caring too much. Trying too help everyone. Trying to get everyone to be happy. MY own naiveness was trying to solve other people's problems because I know how it feels like to be alone. To have no one to help and just get stuck in a whirlpool of depression. And maybe maybe...

Thats where I got it wrong. I get mad when things don't turn out right. It's not because I'm mad at you for not doing the right thing. It's cuz I'll be mad at myself for not succeeding to stop the worst from happening. And it hurts alot, as if I'm the one going through your problem, yet I'm so helpless of doing anything.

My mom says I'm naive for trying to help, but I just can't sit down and watch these things happen. But them again, everytime, everytime I try to help, it ends a disaster, one way or another. 

So honestly was it wrong for me to help?

Maybe it is. Maybe I'm not meant to help everyone. Maybe some things are beyond my control. And maybe, I care too much for my own good.

I'm too emotionally unstable, and when I'm in one of those moods, it never ends good. In the end, I'm the one who's doing the hurting. I'm just so... ugh. :(



I never meant to hurt anyone. I just want everyone to be happy.

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Teenagers, understanding and love.

'I love you' is a beautiful thing. It brings two people together, makes you go crazy , brightens your day, and so on. The list just goes on and on. 


We all have been gifted with the ability to love and theres nothing wrong to love someone or something. Contrary, the world should learn to love and care about others more

But nowadays, love is just a game to alot of people, and it's just really sad to see. Especially to us teenagers. When you say 'I love you' to someone, you have to really mean it. You have to ready to give your all for her and do anything for that special person.


But wait!! You probably think, 'Hey, I'm prepared to do exactly just that when the right person comes along.' But are you?? Let me ask, can you even provide for her? Can you give what you think you can? Do you think you'll even get married?? You haven't even stepped into college let alone be ready to commit to her. Everyone of us, deep down, knows this is true. I thought of it before myself but I pushed it aside because I was too blinded by love at that time.  My mom once told me "Love a girl when your ready to provide. Focus on your studies, graduate from college, get a decent job. Then you'll know your ready."

She's right.


I'm not saying its wrong to have feelings towards someone. I'm just saying we needa think things through. As annoying as it is (even for me), truth is, studies come first right now. Save that 'I love you' for that real special someone when you're ready. Even I still have feelings for girls from time to time, but I know what must come first. Don't screw up your future just because you think you're in love. When the right time comes, you'll know. Trust me. God will nudge you forward ;)