One typical morning, I woke up as usual on my bed. As I was getting up from my bed to go brush my teeth, I tripped over a pile of books near my bed which I never bothered to clear up. At that moment while I was rubbing my bruises, I was laughing to myself and thinking 'Wow, if I have a girlfriend now, she would think I am really messy and unorganized'. That was the moment it hit me. Everything made sense then.
As a Christian, I've always been told that God loves us and wants everything the best for us. He knows what I really wants and He really wants to give it to me unless the timing isn't right or I am not ready. So at that awkward moment in my room, I began to realize. What if after all this while, I never had a girlfriend because God was actually protecting both of us from having a bad relationship due to my/her bad habits? In other words, what if I was not fully ready for a relationship? It's like going out to meet someone without your clothes or swimming without first learning how to. You can't do something if you yourself aren't ready for it.
And so I began to seriously think of all the bad habits about myself that I can and should changed all this while. For one, it's clear that I am extremely messy at home, especially my room. I am also very lazy if you compared me to my twin brother, Alden who is basically the most hardworking guy I have ever met even until now. Even focusing my attention on getting a girlfriend instead of my own future (especially at this age) is already a sign that I am not ready to get in a relationship. Besides that you and I should also never change who we are in order to get a girl. If it comes to that, something is definitely wrong with the way you approach things because love isn't based on false pretenses and frankly if that person can't love you for who you are, obviously he/she isn't the one for you!
Of course, your natural look, personal quirk or family background should never be use as an excuse as to why no one likes you. I really hate it when people go all
'Aiyo, I so ugly so no one will like me' or
'I am not rich enough' or even
'I am not funny enough'
because for a genuine relationship to work, non of those matters. If it does to you or your crush, then maybe he/she isn't right for you. At least, that's the way I feel about it. In fact, this issue deserves a post on its own but I guess that's for another day.
On my personal official list, I never had a girlfriend in my life. It's a funny truth that I am laughing about now because I am actually glad I never had one. I'll be saving it one day for a girl who truly means something to me when I am ready. :)
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| Finally after all this while, I finally understood what this means. |
