Ever been through an experience so depressing and demoralising that it just breaks you?? And you feel like you can never pick up the pieces and out them back again. It's the lowest point in your life and at times, you think maybe the world is better of without you.
I've been through mine.
After going through helluva experience , they'll be a period where you try to put things back the way it is. Make sense in your life again. For me, it's truly the roller coaster ride. One day you feel so confident and so alive, the next, absolute depression. It's difficult to go through this alone, thats for sure. At times, I didn't think I'll ever recover. But given enough time, all wounds can heal, even scars.
I think theres 4 phase in the road to recovery. Atleast for me.
1. The pain.
The names says it all. This is probably the hardest part of it all. Its when your stripped of everything you once held close. You just feel so empty and you just seem to make bad judgement everyday. The only thing you feel like doing is crawl up in bed and cry or listen to emo songs all day. Don't forget the depress feeling and the feeling of absolute regret. Its terrible, just terrible.
2. Pretending.
This is the time when you think you've recovered... but you don't. The pain is there. Feelings still there but you try to convince yourself that you've moved on. You are constantly reminded of the problem and it comes back to haunt you alot. They'll be days when you feel fine, and days when you like phase one
3. The Actual Recovery.
At this phase, life.... actually seems livable again. You got back on your feet and you kinda moved on. It's a great feeling to be becuz here's when you genuinely start to be happy again. :) You get repercussions of the past and maybe a thing or two upsets you, but it sure beats being emo whole day haha
4. Healed
Nothing much to say here. You've made it :)
I think I'm in stage 3 now, going to stage 4. I'm recovering really well now. Catching on my studies, being more responsible, having fun and just being happy in general. They key is to let go. But then again, thats exactly the hardest thing to do, and thats why people get stuck in stage 1 and 2 for so long. For me, I finally got over it with support from friends and God. Get a friend who understands what your going through. It seriously helps! It also helps avoiding contact with that person awhile. It gives you time to heal and recover, like the way scars heal faster if you don't disturb it.
Its nothing much here but I just thought I'll share it to you people. :) And if anyone out there who needs a shoulder to lean on or feel lost, come find me. I can't promise I'll help you fix your problem, but I'll always be there for you and help you when you need it. Because sometimes, no matter how tough you are, there are times when you do break down, and you'll be absolutely lost. That is the time when you should open up and take the first step on the road to recovery.
