..... Damn is it me or are the random people who post on my chatbox for apparently 'appreciating my blog' or 'blogwalking' so... I dunno how to say lol. Uhh weird I guess. They're just promoting their advertisement for me to go to their website and hopefully buy their products which I absolutely don't need like deoderant. Okay, seriousy? Seriously?
Aaaannwayyysss,
Back to the topic at hand. Violin exams is in 2 days! I seldom get this nervous for an exam but its special. Well first of all its grade 8. It's like the final test (Thats if I don't sit for diploma la lol) for me to see what I have learn and become after all those years of learning. If I get a stinking merit or pass, it's like canceling out all of my achievements or distinctions I got in the past. That would really suck. ._.
PPLUUS, I faced a similar situation for my grade 8 piano exams 2 years back. I was super confident because I've been getting distinction from grade 1 aaallll the way to that. So as you might have guessed, I did pretty badly and just mamanged a pass. -_- that hurt, alot. I can't let that happened to my violin.
I also wanna repay my teacher. Some teachers come and go in your life, but my violin teacher really affect my life. He taught me so well this past few years and I can't remember the last time I said thank you to him or show any sign of appreciation. :/ I really want to get a distinction and dedicate that to my teacher. I really love him as a teacher and this just may be my chance to show it.
I've been working my ass of life siao. Today I did 6 hours -____-' I haven't been with my friends or play futsal for a month. Just locked up in my music room practicing. I thought it was enough... But when I went for my last practice sessions, my teacher told me I was 'not bad'. I know exactly what he meant. I was bad. He just didn't want to discourage me because it's almost exam time already. That was a big kick in the balls. All that hardwork... and not good enough?? So dissapointed :(
I know I can atleast get a merit. But I'm really hoping for a distinction! Hope God answers my prayer! Until then, T-minus 1day 8 hours to my exams. The dreaded day.
